TICK TOCK!

Which part of dont be late that people dont understand?
Haih,here is some advice for people that is ALWAYS LATE doing anything.

IF ur asking for your friend's help to go somewhere or to do something, which involves the other person's time to be sacrificed and other sorts of things to be sacrificed for your sake,DONT BE LATE. Note that you are asking for other people's help, the other person is KIND enough to help you, dont take it for granted.
DONT be late because waiting for other people when there is SOME OTHER BETTER things to do SUCKS! Please please please remember, its not NICE to make other people waiting for you.

IF you are going out with your friends and u've promised to meet at a specific time, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE make it on time. Dont be 5 minutes late, or 30 minutes late or ONE HOUR LATE. Seriously, it gives you a bad impression. Indirectly, the other people thats been waiting for you turns moody or such and started to talk bad about you(haha,padan muka). UNLESS, you have a SUPERBLY GOOD REASON,then that is acceptable! If not,u better just cancel the plan..

My advice is, if im telling you ill be coming at 5,u better get ready before that.
Getting ur ass up from where ever u are at 4.55 DOESNT HELP!
If u are known as a person that take a LONGGGGGGGG time to get ready, just get up a bit earlier and go and get ready.

SERIOUSLY GUYS,IM HELPING YOU FOR UR FUTURE ESPECIALLY WHEN UR WORKING LATER ON.
TIME IS MONEY.LITERALLY. TICK TOK OKAY!

My Biggest Problem

Its hard for me to express my feelings when im with someone.

U might have seen me mad, but ive never yelled or shouted before.

But somehow, it happens and you have no power to control it.

Shit happens right?

Its hard for me to express my feelings when im with someone.

Even if u are my closes-best-friend-in-whole-world,

Its still hard for me to show my true feelings.

Im a good actor,i think.

U think im fine cause i look fine,but the truth is 

IM NOT.

I dont simply cry in front of people that im close to

It takes quite some time for me to open up and tell and cry.

But i think thats normal,right? ;)

Its hard for me to express my feelings when im with someone.

Even though im close to u, u barely hear me sayin I MISS U 

And its hardly for u to hear me saying I LOVE U.

I dont know why its hard for me to say these words.

I can just simply type it here or in the messages

but when it comes to face to face, i dont have the power to say those stuff.

Ill have this funny feeling in my heart just when im thinking to say these stuff.

People called it EGO.

AM I AN EGOIST? I dont think so.

Some people called it cold-hearted.

AM I ONE? I hope not.

Sekecil Zarah

Saya suka.
Saya suka sangat sangat dengan apa yang awak tengah buat.
Walaupun benda yang sekecil zarah pun,yang orang lain tak nampak ke-significant-nye
Tapi saya nampak.
Itu yang penting.
Dan saya suka.

Mungkin awak pun tak perasaan.
Sebab saya susah nak tunjukkan perasaan saya.
Ekspersi muka lain,apa yang rasa di dalam lain.
Saya susah nak menunjukkan perasaan saya
Lagi lagi nak mengucapkannya.

Tapi bila awak buat sesuatu
Yang sangat lah kecil
Macam sekecil kecil zarah
Saya rasa macam benda itu adalah sesuatu yang sangat besar
Membuatkan saya tersenyum
Senyum sampai orang pandang saya pelik
Dan memberi pandangan
"Kenapa budak ni senyum sorang sorang?"

Pelik kan?
Perasaan gembira boleh membuatkan orang buat macam macam
Bila saya gembira
Boleh membuatkan saya tidur dengan lebih aman
Boleh membuatkan saya buat kerja dengan lebih lancar
Boleh membuatkan hari saya lebih tenang,senang dan ceria
Tiada stress tiada pening pening kepala
Hanya dengan apa yang awak lakukan
Yang hanyalah sekecil kecil zarah.

I love all those small details that people dont notice or even appreciate it but it seriously gives a big impact on one's relationship and one's life so dont take it for granted and cherish and appreciate whatever thats happening in your life because the most beautiful thing that can happen is usually things that u dont plan and it's usually happen with the smallest thing that u might not think its a huge or important thing.
i loveeee it i looovveee itt ;))

What Should I Do?

Should i back out now? 

Can i be selfish and wanting all this?
Even though i know someone else is hurt because of what i am doing.

Even if i knew that she still loves him and he still loves her.
And im stuck in the middle of no where.

What should i do?

Should i run away? 
After all that ive build
And just let them be happy together?

Or should i just stay?
And let us be happy together? 

I dont know 
Even if i ran away,
Would things get better for them?

Thats not my call to make.
I dont want to stand in between them
But i also dont want to let him go.

What should i do?
For some reason 
I felt like im the bad guy here
Is it my fault?
For suddenly showing up in ur life?

Should i back out now?
I dont want to
Because im happy now.
And its been a while since im happy happy.

What would u do if u were in my shoes?
Would u run far far away for other people's happiness?
Or would u stay and fight for what u want?

Oh God, I Love Her So Very Much

Oh how i hate this part
The part where i cant do anything to make her stop crying
To make her pain goes away
To make her feel happy and laugh with full of joy
I know she tried so very hard to keep the relationship strong
And im supporting her in every single way.

But oh why God,
Why is it so hard for her to reach her happiness.
I cant watch her in pain no more
It kills me to see her going through the same thing twice.
I hope thats not gonna happen, God please.
I love her so very much, please take good care of her.
Dont break her small fragile heart cause its was crushed before.

Im begging U please,help her to find her happiness in life.
Im asking for YOUR help,
To give her the best in studies,
And to give her the best in health.
Safe her from any diseases.
To give her the best in her life.
Keep her away from danger.
To have good relationship with her parents and siblings.
And she'll be happy.
And stronger.
With whatever thats spinning around in her life.


I love her so very much,
Please take good care of her.
She's the greatest friend i could ever wish for.

Emotions

There's a zillion types of emotions.
Some u can explain in words
And others u cant.

Its a fun thing to discover such emotions.
Its either u experienced it 
Or u watched other people experienced it.
Its FUN. ;D

Its life.its one of the beauty of life that we need to discover.
Life is like an adventure.if u dont explore, u dont know things.
TAK KENAL MAKA TAK CINTA,BUKAN? ;D

Sometimes we try to cover our emotions
Like when we are sad,we try to cover it up with out big smile.
But even our big smile cant hide the true feelings that shows in ur eyes.
Or even when ur lying,it shows in your eyes.

Theres a quote KECIK taught me,
THE FEARS IN UR EYES BETRAYS THE LIES ON YOUR TONGUE
Its true,indeed.

HOPE is an emotion.
This emotion is the one that i have been clinging on for the whole year.                                                         But my hope was crushed.
And broken me into pieces.
And ive promised to myself
To not have hope on anyone,
Anymore.
Just pray to Allah,
Hopping He will help u because he's the only one can make things happen.

back to the topic :P

Emotion shake things up in our life
Making it more meaningful.
Enjoy every emotion that u felt.
Cherish each and every one of the feelings
Cause u never know when is the next time u can feel it again.

These are my fav. quotes about emotions:

-Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary. ~Mark Twain

-Feelings are much like waves, we can't stop them from coming but we can choose which one to surf. ~Jonatan Mårtensson

-Cherish your own emotions and never undervalue them.

Think!

What Is The Difference Between Both of This Situations?

The loneliness that u feel when you are in a huge room 
Like a ballroom or in a hall.
You are in there,alone.
With no one else.
Just u and the walls.
Up down right left.
The feeling that u have inside, 
The loneliness,
And u can literally hear if a pin dropped.

And 

Being alone in a open space,open air.
No one else is there.
Its just u,alone.
Like in the desert
Or even up in the space.
Imagine the loneliness
That u felt.
U have no one to talk to
And u have a never ending road in front of u

What is the difference?

 My answer
In the open space
U have the moon and stars to accompany u
In a hall room?
You are alone.

In open space u can look up ahead and see the great creation of Allah.
In a hall room?
All u can see is walls and floors.

My teacher asked my what is the difference between these two feelings?
Which makes me think and imagine myself in those positions.

There is a quote in a song:
"Loneliness is just a crime
meet each other in the eye
and say hello."

There is no harm in being alone,i thought.
It makes u more independent,i think.
But having other people around spice up ur life.
Makes u want to smile and just live to the fullest.
And sometimes we need loneliness.                                                                                                                          Because there's a quote says
“Loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better.”

its true,right?
i think so :D

Run Run

I saw you ran
Under the hot blazing sun
You’re running with a big grin on your face
Trying to catch up with your friends, I guess

But no,
You weren’t running towards them
But you’re running towards me
Me?
Who am I to u?
Just your acquaintance or a friend ?
Or more than that ?

But I don’t care
As long as im with u
Ill just enjoy every moment whenever im with u
Ill appreciate every bits and pieces of you

Why?
Because when im with you
You'll give me the best smile you’ve got
And your beautiful smile is contagious
Because ill be wanting to smile too

Its super weird and unexplainable
The feeling that I have in my small beating heart
The feeling when u looked at me
The feeling when u come and talk to me
And accompany me to wherever I want to go
I like that
U make my heart beats super fast and super slow at the same time.
Its insane and its indescribable, this feeling of mine.

Beautiful Quotes!

"It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces"

We always ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us


" If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go"


"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do"


"Every time I see him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I am painfully aware that I am not over him and he is over me"


"You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?"


"Why did I fall for you when you just keep falling for her?"


"I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was"

Kata Mama

Kehidupan di jalani macam biasa.                                                                                                                Solat Magrib berjemaah beramai-ramai kemudian papa membaca kitab.                                                          Kadang-kadang,kita dah penat menjalani aktiviti seharian,                                                                          sampai bila papa baca kitab,kita tak focus.                                                                                                Mengantok.                                                                                                                                                       Fikiran melayang.                                                                                                                                          Fikir apa makan malam.Fikir cerita apa malam ni.Ish ish ish.True story ni.Yana Yana.

Tapi,bila papa mula bercerita tentang studies ,saya secara tiba-tiba terus hilang rasa mengantok.             Terus berminat utk mendengar apa yg papa hendak katakan seterusnya.

Papa selalu kata,kenaaa berusaha kuat-kuat Tapi kena berserah juga dekat Allah.
Tak ada guna kalau kita belajar belajar berusaha kuat-kuat tapi tak solat, tak berdoa ,tak baca Quran.
Dan sama juga kalau kite buat smua perintah Nya tapi tak berusaha,kite tawakal saja,tanpa berusha.                          Itu lagi salah.

Bila keputusan keluar,dapat keputusan yang kurang bagus.
Kita merengek,sedih and tak puas hati.
Kita akn mula ckp mcm ni;
KALAU LA aku....
KALAU LA aku tak...
KALAU LA aku ni....
KALAU KALAU KALAU.

Mama pun berkata,
PERKATAAN KALAU ITU ADALAH HARAM.
HARAM HARAM DAN HARAM!
Benda dah terjadi. Perkataan KALAU saama mcm kita tak bole nak terima apa yg dah terjadi.macam kita kalau bole nak pusing balik ke masa dulu.

Kita kena sedar,setiap sesuatu yang terjadi ada hikmahnya.
Allah tak jadikan sesuatu atau sesuatu itu berlaku tanpa alasan yang bagus.
Allah ada jalan dia tersendiri.

His own unique ways that sometimes we didnt even notice and makes u go ooohh ahhh waaah..kan?
Ive experienced that, so i know it by heart!

So,next time.
Dont whine.
Dont say WHAT IF WHAT IF IF IF IF IF.
Its better to find a solution and do something rather than just sit there and whine about ur life.
Action speaks louder than words,indeed.

Him

My heart hurts
Do u know how it feels like to want something but u cant get it.
Even though it is right in front of u.

U felt like uve screamed ur lungs out but he cant hear it.
U felt like uve cried a river and u r drowning but he is not.
U felt like there was an explosion in ur heart but he didnt hear.

Its hard to explain what just happened.
I cant belive that i did that.
Me?ili?illi liyana ank pakcik romli?
I dont know from where i had the courage to do that.

But at some point, i am proud of my self for doin that.
People always says that not many people have the strength and courage to do that.
Even waney said that MY ILI DAH BESAR.
She said because back then i used to cry, a lot.
And now im a strong. i feel strong. i know i am strong.

In this case,
Im not sure what i should do.
Because
Im happy when im with him.
I felt like i want to spend a hell of a time with him.
I felt safe and taken cared of whenever im with him.

But its wrong.
No,no ily.
I have to accept the fact that it is impossible.
No ily, no.

Missing You

I miss him

Dont know why
All of a sudden 
Our memories together 
Came back to me

U’ve taught me a lot
About life
How to survive in this world
U’ve told me
U've been thru a lot
About ur dad
About uve tangled in some ugly situations

And ive tried to help u 
To become a better person
And i know 
I've succeded to do so 
Because 
I can see u r different now
I thanked God for that 

I miss u
I want to see u
But that is kind of impossible
For that to happen

Hope to see u one day