My Biggest Problem

Its hard for me to express my feelings when im with someone.

U might have seen me mad, but ive never yelled or shouted before.

But somehow, it happens and you have no power to control it.

Shit happens right?

Its hard for me to express my feelings when im with someone.

Even if u are my closes-best-friend-in-whole-world,

Its still hard for me to show my true feelings.

Im a good actor,i think.

U think im fine cause i look fine,but the truth is 

IM NOT.

I dont simply cry in front of people that im close to

It takes quite some time for me to open up and tell and cry.

But i think thats normal,right? ;)

Its hard for me to express my feelings when im with someone.

Even though im close to u, u barely hear me sayin I MISS U 

And its hardly for u to hear me saying I LOVE U.

I dont know why its hard for me to say these words.

I can just simply type it here or in the messages

but when it comes to face to face, i dont have the power to say those stuff.

Ill have this funny feeling in my heart just when im thinking to say these stuff.

People called it EGO.

AM I AN EGOIST? I dont think so.

Some people called it cold-hearted.

AM I ONE? I hope not.