Perasaan Saya

Kadang-kadang awak ada.
Kadang-kadang awak tak ada.


Kadang-kadang awak suka
Kadang-kadang awak tak ada perasaan lagsung


Kadang-kadang awak nak
Kadang-kadang awak sendiri pun tak tahu awak nak ke tak


Kadang-kadang saya rasa macam nak berhenti
Kadang-kadang saya nak sangat teruskan


Awak suka buat saya macam ini
Terkapai-kapai dalam air
Macam main tarik tali
Kejap nak kejap tak nak
Tapi kenapa saya degil sangat
Tak reti nak berhenti
Dan lepaskan segalanya?


Dah terbiasa dengan keadaan dulu
Bila tak ada,
Rasa pelik
Bila jumpa
Pun rasa pelik
Perangai semacam
Masing-masing buat hal sendiri
Macam tak pernah kenal


Sakit hati?
Tak payah cakap
Bila terfikir
Jantung berdegup laju
Geram?
Sakit hati?
Menyampah?
Apa sebab pun saya tak tahu


Menyesal?
Entah. Saya pun tengah fikir
Saya menyesal ke?
Saya menyesal ke?
Kenal dia, tak.
Tindakan saya, ya.
Kenangan dengan dia, tak.


Kalau saya tak melakukan apa yang saya lakukan,
Kita mungkin akan lebih gembira
Saya lebih gembira
Sebab tak rasa macam saya "beban" awak
Sebab tak perlu letak harapan kat awak
Sebab saya tak kan jadi macam ni
Macam orang bodoh
Kejar benda yang macam tak boleh kecapi
Lagi susah lagi nak
Lagi orang kata jangan, lagi nak buat


Nak buat macam mana?
Hmm.

Dissapointment

I was thinking. I always put hope on people. When im close to someone, I thought I can rely on that person. But how does that works if you are the only one that felt you are close with that person?           

Im  done with putting hope on people. On my best friends, or people that I thought they are my best friends, can sometime be disappointing. I was hoping for something but they couldn’t care less. Am I invisible here? Or am I just not that worth it to be appreciated? 

I want to just disappear, sometimes. Wanting to just shut down and hope that I am invisible so that people wont notice me and so they wont come and talk to me. Running away from people. Running away from all of my problems. Just run far far away and im sure people wont even notice im gone.

The disappointment that I felt is really killing me. It kills my mood of, it kills my day throughout. I once think to myself, to not put hope on anyone, friends, close friends, families, everyone. The result is always the same and im the one that’s hurt and they didn’t even notice that they are killing me, inside. 

:)

Thinking of you
by Sarah

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise
You're the last thing I think of
When I close my eyes

You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move you make

You're an angel from above
who takes away my pain
My love for you is so strong
It's always just the same

You're the miracle in my life
Who can always make me smile
Just knowing that you care
Makes my life worth-while

You've touched my heart and soul
Which you have from the start
Your warm soft words
Will never leave my heart

You are everything I want
You're so pure and true
I love you with everything I have
And I love everything that you do.

No backbone?

Give me your opinion

Because i really need one

Some people are so insecure

Of their own man

Scared that ill take him away from you?

Clearly, you dont know me

That is the most stupidest statement ive ever heard

I am a good friend to him

I think and hope so

I guess some friendship are worth to let go

For a relationship that makes he thinks that is worth it

Does that make sense?  

I pity the girl

Feeling all insecure all the time

Having to put a spy on his guy

Just to ensure that his guy is not cheating on her

And the guy just accept it

I also pity the guy

Dont you have a backbone?

You really have to follow what your girl said?

You really just gonna sit and stare

While she's destroying our friendship

That we had build all these years

I guess i wasnt that worth it

To fight for

Just be one

You said you want us to be friends.
Just friends.
So be one.
Dont act more. 
Dont act less.
Just be a friend.
Dont make me feel that there's hope.
Hope for us being together.
Cause its freaking hurt.
Freaking hurt to put hope on you.
And you without even realizing.
Breaking my small fragile heart.
And together with my stupidity.
Unable to let you go.
Its killing myself slowly.
Without me realizing it.

Oh My

Oh moon,
Oh my beautiful lovely moon,
Will you accompany me tonight?
This gloomy and lonely night

Oh sun,
Oh my shining brightly sun,
Will you promise,
To keep on shining,
So to lead me to the right way?


Oh beach,
Oh my windy and clam beach,
Will you always be there,
Whenever i want to run away,
From all the world madness?

Kata Mereka

Bak kata Zetty,
Bila awak suka seseorang,
Semua yang dia tak buat,
Nampak macam dia buat,
Walaupun dia sebenarnya tak buat apa apa.

dan

Bila awak suka seseorang,
Semua yang dia buat,
Nampak macam dia telah buat sesuatu yang sangat besar,
Dan sangat bermakna,
Walaupun dia cuma bernafas di muka bumi ini.

dan

Bila awak suka seseorang,
Awak akan selalu nak tengok phone awak,
Tengok kalau kalau dia ada text atau call awak,
Bila dia ada call atau text,
Jantung awak akan berdegup laju.

kenapa?

kenapa ini semua berlaku?
nak tahu kenapa?
Sebab bila kita suka seseorang
Perasaan suka tu sangat lah kuat
Sangat kuat,
Sampai kadang kadang awak sendiri pun hairan kenapa la sampai macam ni.

tapi

Tapi ingat,
Sayang mana pun, jangan sayang sangat.
Sebab satu hari nanti kita akan kehilangannya.

sayang?

Sayang sepenuhnya lebih baik kepada Allah.
Kerana Dia yang membuatkan hidup kita lebih bermakna.
Kita semua di lahirkan sama.
Dari air mani dan akhirnya di tanam dalam tanah.

tapi

Tapi Allah telah memilih kita,
Dan kita dipilih untuk dilahirkan dalam Islam,
Mempunyai sifat yang sempurna,
Maka dia lah yang layak                                                                                                                                       Layak untuk kita sayang dengan sepenuh hati,bukan? 

Brainless People!

Whats with some of the human beings in this world?
Dont you guys have anything else to do other than talking about other people?
What? 
Your life is so damn FCUKED UP and u are so damn BORED with ur OWN life so you started talking about other people’s and make things up?
What the hell is wrong with u people?! 
GET A LIFE,DUDE!

Gossiping is natural ,i know.
Its something we cant avoid in the not-so-pretty-beautiful-world.
But PLEASE ,im begging you guys.
If u want to gossip ,just try to be a SOPHISTICATED one.
You wanna know how?
Firstly ,BY GETTING YOUR FACTS RIGHT!!
Stupid dumb ass people that gossip about other people and dont even know the right facts. DONT MAKE UP STORIES.
If u really want to, be an author.
Im preeeeety sure u will be a GREAT one!
Stupid brainless inane idiotic!

Do all of us a favor and
Just STOP MAKING UP WHITE PURPLE BLACK LIES about other people!

Guarantee?

Why is it so hard?
Why cant it be easy?
I know no one told me its gonna be easy
But no one said that it could be this hard.

Why am I facing this?
Am i the only one thats feeling this?
What are you trying to do here?

Please tell me my dear
Because i am so tried with all of this
Even though i am enjoying this
But at the same time its painful
Because i have to enjoy it cautiously.
Because there's no guarantee that you will be here with me tomorrow.
Please just stay,will you?

Do it not because of feeling sympathy 
Do it because you want to
Being near to you 
I feel different
It is indefinable 

But what i know is
I want to have that feeling forever
So i will try my best to get you
I know you are a good person

I really hope we have a future together
But if that is not what's the best for us
I have to let my hopeless dream go

But i can assure you
I will try everything
Because that's how i do stuff
I always gets what i want
Even though i cant hold it long enough
But at least im privileged enough just to hold you for a little while.
And thats what im going to do

Friends For Life

I have a number of GOOOOOOD friends 
Its kind of hard when people asked,
Who is ur best friend?
How do i judge them?
Because from what i know,
Best friends DONT judge best friends.
We just accept them for who they are and what they are.
We dont whine about them(well sometimes. Hihi) 
All we have to do is to be grateful to have them as ur best friend.

A true friend never walks out from you when ur in DEEP SHIT.
They will always be there no matter what.
Its normal to fight sometimes,even marriage couple fights.
Well,its up to us on how to handle the matter

A true friend will always listen when you talk.
Sometimes u dont even have to say it,they would understand it them self.
They know u well,ups and downs.
They know when ur hiding something even though u have a BIG FAKE SMILE at ur face.
They know what to do when ur in the OFF mode.

A true friend is who always knows whats best for you.
They'll yell shout and do what they had to do when ur out of the line
And they will pick u back up
And put you back on track.

A true friend is like a kite.
No matter how far or high they flew away,
They will always come back.
Closing one eye on ur weaknesses or ur bad habits.
And just live with it. 

A true friend will always try to keep in touch with u                                                                                        No matter where you are,
They will try to call you or text you.
U'll be in they heart and mind.
Even though you are 10000000000000000000 miles away.

A true friend knows just how to make u happy.
A few words of wisdom from them can change your life
They know just what flavor that u love the most.
And what colour suits you the most.

A true friend will help you when ur car is broken in the middle of the road 
Or will find you if u ever got stuck in the sea.
They will call u in the middle of the night and disturb ur sleep
Just to catch up stories with you.

A true friend will help you to face the truth
No matter how much you hate the fact and how hurt it is
They wil always tell you up front to ur face
Nicely and gently 
And you will accept it slowly.

A true friend will walk with you
They will never walk behind you, scared of may not follow.
They will never walk ahead of u, scared of may not lead.
They will just walk beside you, and get through life together.

A true friend will be the one that you share all ur stories with
They will hear and listen with their full heart.
They will want to succeed together in studies and life.
They are the ones you will turn to If you need anything.
The best part is
you have their TRUST.